i miss c.s. lewis

he is a great writer.  i often can ponder for hours on his carefully chosen words.  the ways that he manages to paint a perfect image amaze me.  he makes me want to dig deeper into my faith, and in my opinion he was an incredible tool for God.

the man that i am referring to is clive staples lewis (c.s. lewis).  i took a class back in january that was centered around his theology.  it was most definitely one of the best classes that i have ever taken.  his books and ideas made me think about a lot of things.  much of his theology deals with the idea that God is the true reality.  everything else that causes us to lose our focus is false.  lately i have been frustrated a lot about the attitudes that i am surrounded by.  people complain so much!  it drives me crazy.  now, i am not saying that i never fall into the temptation of griping about my circumstances, but i like to think of myself as a rather optimistic individual.

why do we complain?  why do we care so much about things that do not even matter?  God tells us not to worry.  we are taught to be content and make the most of every situation.  americans are so picky.  if things are not exactly the way that we want them to be, then we throw a fit.  how selfish can we be?  God is all that matters.  other people are all that matter.  love is all that matters.  c.s. lewis got it.  he understood what life is all about.  he understood what it takes to truly follow Christ.  if only we could get it through our thick skulls.

so, here i am on tuesday evening wondering how to make a difference.  sometimes i feel so alone in the fight.  sometimes i feel so inadequate in the struggle.  i want to be an example, and i want to be a soldier for what is right.  i guess i just miss seeing God in our words and actions.  i miss the urgency of our mission.  sometimes i wish i could sit down and talk with mr. lewis and gain some wise words.  i know that he would have so much to share.  i guess in a small way, i miss c.s. lewis.